A Rural Life Tucked Away In The Rocky Mtns Of British Columbia.
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Tuesdays With Texas Chapter Nine ( Life Goes On With Or Without You)
Life got pretty rough for awhile after Rick's decision to not be here anymore. I went and stayed with my friend and left the horses at home....I use the word home loosely, it quit being a home when the sound of a gun shot destroyed the peaceful, safe place I considered a sanctuary. I pretty much got a routine down for the chores but the longer I had to keep going back there the more it bothered me. I have to say I don't even remember where I moved the horses to...I know I could no longer afford to have them, so I had to make the decision to let them go...it was hard but had to be done. I found good homes for them ...the one that bothered me though was Dandy, I think it was because I had been around him for a long time and he had belonged to my friend....so I felt the pull of guilt over that one. In case you're thinking how could she ...I did not let Tex go....that was already something that was etched in stone...something that would never happen. Even though I wasn't 100% I had to go get a job...bills to pay ....blah blah blah the usual stuff everybody has to deal with. I was still feeling pretty raw and would rather have run away and done just about anything else....however life goes on whether you are ready or not. My faith and trust in people was at an all time low but the one thing I had that I could put my faith in was this, no matter where we moved or what gateway he stood in ...as sure as the sun will rise...I could count on this.
How can a greeting like this every morning not put a smile on your face.
For 32yrs no matter what life has thrown at me I have been able to rely on Tex for comfort and companionship and for 32 yrs he has never failed to come through for me.