Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Tuesdays With Texas Chapter Nine ( Life Goes On With Or Without You)

Life got pretty rough for awhile after Rick's decision to not be here anymore. I went and stayed with my friend and left the horses at home....I use the word home loosely, it quit being a home when the sound of a gun shot destroyed the peaceful, safe  place I considered a sanctuary. I pretty much got a routine down for the chores but the longer I had to keep going back there the more it bothered me. I have to say I don't even remember  where I moved the horses to...I know I could no longer afford to have them, so I had to make the decision to let them go...it was hard but had to be done. I found good homes for them ...the one that bothered me though was Dandy, I think it was because I had been around him for a long time and he had belonged to my friend....so I felt the pull of guilt over that one. In case you're thinking how could she ...I did not let Tex go....that was already something that was etched in stone...something that would never happen.  Even though I wasn't 100% I had to go get a job...bills to pay ....blah blah blah the usual stuff everybody has to deal with. I was still feeling pretty raw and would rather have run away and done just about anything else....however life goes on whether you are ready or not. My faith and trust in people was at an all time low but the one thing I had that I could put my faith in was this, no matter where we moved or what gateway he stood in ...as sure as the sun will rise...I could count on this.

How can a greeting like this every morning not put a smile on your face.
For 32yrs no matter what life has thrown at me I have been able to rely on Tex for comfort and companionship and for 32 yrs he has never failed to come through for me.

4 comments:

Shirley said...

Tex has been with you longer than most couples have been married. Like a true guy, he looks forward to dinner....
Horses give us life lessons; there is always a reason to keep going when things are at their darkest and bleakest,they give us something to hold on to, even if it is just the necessity of caring for a creature who is solely dependent on us. They lift us up. Especially with heart warming whinnies and cute little fox ears!

Sherry Sikstrom said...

Calls straight to your heart! What a wonderful horse! So glad you had each other

The W.O.W. factor! said...

I've just been catching up with you and your life....Janice, I know our animals become our sanctuary. We share so much more with them than we actually do with our humans. I am so thankful that you and Tex still have each other! BTW...your border collies are gorgeous too!!!

Janice Grinyer said...

you have something very very special there...and of course so does Tex ;)!

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